I’ll start from the beginning.
I am a transfer student from National Dong Hwa University Meilun Campus English Department to National Dong Hwa University Main Campus English Literature Department. To make it simple, I transferred from a small campus to a huge campus.
Lots of teachers and friends have asked me why I wanted to transfer. They couldn’t understand why bother transfer from English Department in Meilun to English Literature Department in Main Campus when the things students study were so alike. “Isn’t that the same thing?””Major in English?” they would ask. When encounter those questions, different people I tell different stories. Some I would say, ”Oh yeah, but here the teachers suck!”. Others I go, ”Yeah, but you know what? Here we put our focus on teaching whether we want to admit it or not. You know, Meilun campus was a former teachers college. But the Main Campus is about English Literature. And I love literature!” I am not a liar, what I said were so darn true. But I’m going to be real honest with you here on my blog. Those weren’t the motifs that really made me want to transfer.
The truth is, I don’t feel like I belong there. There’s always been a gap between us. Classmates and I. Teachers and I. The Fellowship and I. To be honest, I don’t think I belong to anywhere. I don’t even know the real reason that made me want to transfer. I guess I was just getting sick of the people there and wanted a change of everything or anything. I don’t want to see myself being like everybody else, giving in, compromise, and eventually, have no passion for life. It’s like a box, we put ourselves in a tiny little box, saying “yeah, that’s me, tiny little me,” while God made us to be a giant! Giant! We limit ourselves unintentionally when God wants us to be out of the box. So why stay in that little comfort zone?
Ok, I don’t know what I’m talking about. And nobody who’s involved in it is going to read this whole bunch of English anyway. Doesn’t matter. God knows how I feel. And that’s enough.
Yahsin
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Yashin, I heard u have came here last Thu, but u left after a while. I wanted to bring some cookie to u, but u didnt answer my phone. In fact, after read ur writting on Oct.8, I want to tell u,I always considered u as my sister whom Father gave me. Father cares abt u, so do I. I dont know exactly what happended to u, but I care abt u. I dont want to see u unhappy. Also I want u know,nomatter what happen, I will always stand by ur side and pray for u! Hope u will get fine soon. :) Enky
Charity, you are such a smart girl, and this time the state of confusion would surely not bring you down. How about finding a serene place, then sitting down and try to talk to youself? Sometime when I bother with sth, the way could make me clear the whole situation.
TSENG寶貝=)
mei guys you're breaking my heart.. thank you. dunno wat I can say but I think I'm getting used to this. this different style of university life. quite different from Meilun campus I must say but guess I'm alright now... Charity
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